My wife caught me with my hand in the pants of our maid and it broke her. She cried bitterly while I wept for remorse too. It was my first time ever and didn’t know what came over me. I could arrogate it to the beer I had that evening. She claimed to have forgiven me but the guilt in my heart is still killing me. I can no longer live one straight hour without the ugly incident replaying itself in my head. What can I do?