Please I need responsible advice

Many were coming as suitors but I don’t know why I let him come closer.

He forcefully took away my pride and I was hurt. He said he did that cos he doesn’t want to lose me

I wanted to leave but I couldn’t cos I love him.
I don’t offer sex cos I’m religious and I believe it’s a sin. Told him to wait till marriage but he wouldn’t.
for almost a year we ve been courting I didn’t allow him touch me.

Till this day he forcefully had sex with me .
He wants to come pay my dowry but I’m not sure that my people will let me marry him. I too went and prayed about him and they told me that he is not my husband (about 5 different people said it)

He is OK, financially, is educated and promising.
But not God-fearing as I wanted.

Now I’m pained for what he did to me .I’m grieved cos I wanted to lose my pride on my wedding night.
and I’m thinking of leaving him cos I’m hurting so much now.

I feel less of myself and sinful too

Please what should I do?

those that married non Virgin how did your spouse take it. I need to know cos it ll help reshaping my mindset